| Longest Fall |
[Nov. 11th, 2007|12:42 pm] |
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I have not done anything Live Journal in a long long time. but I'm here to say that I'm in love with the most amazing girl ever Maria Celeste Rangel Ruiz. She is perfect and beautiful in every way. I'm so lucky to have her. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2006|04:30 am] |
my heads become a war
he's becoming so loud
and I'm losing
He is not forgiving
He is not compationate
He is strong
Maybe I'll listen
Maybe I'll be strong |
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| All good things |
[Dec. 5th, 2006|11:40 am] |
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| | school | ] |
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| |  disappointed | ] |
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| | Apple Shampoo | ] |
She didn't mean to deceive you, believe me
But sometimes the hardest part is conceiving
The good intentions that you had
Now only came to this
And although she saw the mark
The arrow missed
It isn't exciting reciting the stories
Of kind words turned hurting when routine gets boring
Both getting tired of punk rock clubs
And both playing in punk rock bands
The start was something good
But some good things must end |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|11:47 pm] |
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[Nov. 19th, 2006|02:02 pm] |
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| | Plus 44 Cliffdiving | ] |
So as emo as this sounds, I literally "bruised my heart" yesterday. I got hit by a two hundred pound monster during my hockey game square on my chest. Of course I'm tough so I played the rest of the game. But on the way home I informed my dad that we needed to first go to Qdoba, then the ER. So we did, and I have a bruised heart, and a fucked up sternim. So it hurts to breath. But keep in mind this is all medical not just an emo boy starved of attention saying his heart hurts on livejournal so he can get the attention fix he wants... my heart is literally bruised.
Last night was fun.
Night before that was amazing.
I'm going more and more insane though.
Everyone needs to look at a bigger picture instead of saying they are an actually only looking at their own, needs and wants... or what they think they want. I'm sick of these selfish, melodramatic, attention seekers. Fuck the Kodiac Bear. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2006|09:57 am] |
I hate a lot of things, and the way people act... and certain people now. Treat others how you would like to be treated... god dammit.
I wake up at the end of a long, dark, lonely year
It's bringing out the worst in me
I hear your voice start breaking in fear
When the lights go down
And sometimes at night I feel I'm just a broken vessel
An instrument with a darker purpose
I'm at the throat of the young and the helpless
Because they've got nothing to say
go plus 44 fuck people. yeah. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|09:21 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | plus44-no it isnt. (no one can hurt me with hoppus lyrics) | ] |
If you have something to say
Say it to me
Yes, I know you hurt me in the worse possible way
and I have always admitted when I'm wrong and realized it before It was "my turn"
If I was giving up because it was just hard for me, I would of gave up when you hurt me the first time, or the second, or the third.
There's taking chances, which is what I did, then there is jumping into getting hurt, which we know we will do to eachother sometime soon if we weren't to give up.
You gave up on me more than once, so dont give me that.
I admitt that I havn't been perfect and have caused you pain too, I'm sorry and you know that.
I'm never going to replace what we had, it's truly impossible to me, weather you beleive it or not.
I don't want a war, we don't need to hurt eachother more than we have already. Please stop this. :-\
(you forgot the rest of the song)
I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to
Curse my enemies forever
Lets slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroy
Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I cant stand you |
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| Goodbye Note #2. |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|08:12 am] |
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| | Silence | ] |
You have this all wrong, you assumed what I never said
We have and would of hurt each other every week if this kept going
I didn't make a choice between two people, I made a choice for us
You know you meant the world to me, we're both crying
Anyone one else would of given up too, and we both did
Just never at the same time, you should tell all your
friends what you did to me, not what you think I might do now
because you have no clue,
I just wanted to be friends right now, I wasn't choosing someone else over you. |
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| I was told to forget. So I did. |
[Jul. 7th, 2006|05:35 am] |
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| | Alkaline Trio - Dead and Broken. | ] |
I have not updated this in a long time. but here we go.
so far this summer has been amazing.
I've got a new brother that basically lives with me now named Devon Slaps Hoes.
I've been feeling things I havnt let my self be open to feel untill about three days ago, and its amazing... not in a gross way. haha
I got to see tom delonge play music while i was 20 feet away from him. If you know me than you know what that means to me.
My bands new songs are soo good and we are recording them in chicago in a month after we PLAY WARPED TOUR.
on a sad note. I've lost touch with a few freinds. But plan to get back in touch with them cause i miss them.
dana makes good breakfast, so i mowed her lawn. random.
david makes bird noises and its very entertaining.
I cant beleive I ever even put my friends second. and I regret that. Never again. they mean the world to me.
I guess this is growing up.
whooo its five in the morning and my other brothers are either sleeping on my couch/floor/my bed/ or sitting next to me playing tetris. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2006|09:05 pm] |
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I'm fucking bored. Call me and free me. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|10:25 am] |
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regrets regrets regrets regrets ... |
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| so when you see her standing there |
[Jun. 9th, 2006|05:55 pm] |
So, my birthday is coming up. and I'm excited cause im getting lucky. My dad knows the guy that does all the booking for clear channel and through him Im getting two mesa cabs that were owned by good charolett. I dont really care for the band but the cabs are sweet and that means i'll have four cabs... so i'm excited even though i might sell one and get a marshall.
Secondly, my mom said that she will get me a lip ring if i want it. but im not completly sure i do. any ideas?
third. Im getting a new guitar. which i do need.
fourth. Im in a good mood. |
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| Dusted for prints... |
[May. 21st, 2006|07:34 am] |
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| | BLINK -VIOLENCE | ] |
I am very very confused, upset, and sad right now. but I guess things will probably work themselves out, like they usually do. Hopefully.
Not being able to sleep is cool... no, thats not like me complaining.. I kinda like it. Fenton is really relaxing to drive around when the suns coming up, and theres like no cars. And I got surprise IM's from srt family. That was nice. The da vinci code is fucking sweet. so is this song
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after
can't count all the eyes that stare
can't count all the things they see
she kills with no life to spare
Just victims are left to bleed
one drink and the pain goes down
soft shadows lay by her feet
lay soft as you slowly drown
lay still as you fall asleep |
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| rule number five |
[May. 7th, 2006|11:24 pm] |
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| | Fall of Troy | ] |
so this week/weekend was a really really good one.
Thursday- I found out I no longer have to go to school this year and I'll still get all my work, and graduate on time. Played a sweet/really really fun show with apathy. I missed that.
Friday-No school, slept in. Played a really fun show with my joke band at powers catholic highschool... we played fight for your right by the beastie boys... and people thought we were gods. Also random people reconized me from being in apathy for an enemy. thats cool... and devon did a backflip. We then went back home and partied with my friends, jessa, dave, sydney, and devon... dave had a cowboy hat on.
Saturday- Woke up, took people home, hung out with dave most of the day, got our friends from prom and hung out at daves the rest of the night.This included, Dave, Jeff, Josh H. Dani. Jessa, Sydney, and Kelsey ... This also included drunken me making drunken text messeges haha. Then getting woke up at 9 by an SRT sister because I sent her a text at four in the morning and woke her up first...ha
Sunday-wake up.. continue to hang out and relax with people. Then went and saw george carlin in flint with jeff. we saw kids there wearing apathy shirts.. and got happy. Oh and George is soo fucking funny. I loved it just Like this weekend other than one thing that is tending to make me not happy when its bad. but theres not much I can do about it.:(
Is this what you want,
Cause everybody acts without a clue,
Every little kiss and grin you gave,
Was just a little bullshit i saw through
The alcohol is scented with your breath,
You're always always opened up to just be used,
I'm waiting for excuses that decieve,
I'll meet you in the back to see them through, |
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| The hope that I never see your face again, is anything but questionable. |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|02:45 pm] |
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| | MUCH THE SAME - WISH | ] |
WEEKEND!
In about 5 minutes Im going to go hang out with 3 cuties. Hopefully that goes well. :)
Then I'm going to hang out with 3 or more other cuties if I dont have to go to hockey.
Hmmm lots of stuff to do. :)
I must watch out for those dark jedi in school though ;)
I'm really thankfull I've gotten close with new people. I'm really thankfull Ive gotten closer with old friends, but sad that others are drifting :-\ |
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| The only thing that you ever really did for me, was make me oh so miserable. |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|02:52 pm] |
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| | Alkaline Trio | ] |
I'm sick of drama and shit. So I'm done trying to pull things together.
I'm sick of being nice about things, when I have no reason to be, and when I dont get it in return. Fuck that. I can't beleive I even thought about going back on my decisions.
To all my friends, no matter what happens I love you all.
I'm really really excited about this weekend. ;) Lots of stuff to do.
edit* I'm a foot taller and still weigh 20 pounds less. wtf... hahah |
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| I think I like today. |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|09:33 pm] |
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| | HOME | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Angels and Airwaves -Good Day | ] |
So pretty much everything about this weekend for me has been really relaxing/fun. Thanks to our new little like.. click thingy consisting of Jeff, Dave, Jessa, Sydney, Kelsey, Angelica, Josh, haha and sometimes nick, and other random people. Thanks people. I dont hate any of you ;)
But I also really really miss other people that skipped 8b with me last year and walked to arby's and panera bread with me :-\ sounds cheesy, and brokeback, but Im sad about it.
Oh I need you now, the earth fell fast asleep
This room is safe and sound, will you lay here with me and feel it?
True love is something that comes easy
Just one kiss id swear I want to
I hear a pen drop and a nervous heartbeat
Have you ever heard me scream I love you? |
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| North Road |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|10:34 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | giddy | ] |
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| | plus 44 | ] |
Hanging out with friends is really nice. Talking to people is really nice. Not feeling competly alone only because of these things, is really nice.
So who beat 10 little kids at lazer tag 130 to 4 today? cool kids that need to do that to make themselfs feel better. jeff, josh h, dave t, and I.. GO TEAM.
I'm really pleased with my level of saddness with this one situation I'm in. and I'm happy with all the others, even school.
Breakfast tommorrow I think.
I really like plus 44's new song
(warning, this is not directed towards anyone I promise.:-\)
Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I cant stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ignore
Curse my enemies forever
Lets slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroy
I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to |
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| This is a war we can't win. |
[Apr. 2nd, 2006|10:12 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | Island View Drive -Slippin Away | ] |
Okay so this spring break was ammmmaaaazzzzing. the best I've probably ever had. I think I've stayed up all night with people for the past 8 nights in a row. Tour was soooo much fun. the best time I've ever had. Then after I got back I hung out with my buddy Dave and Jeff, Josh, Mark, Sydney, Jessa, Kelsey, and Angelica for a few nights and it was sweet. I'm pretty sure getting McDonalds breakfast at 3 am every night is awesome. Thanks people.
Also Jeff and I played acoustic and it was really sweet. We did really well.
Got arrested with sydney. I hate cops. but it was funny I guess considering all we were doing was standing in davids yard... |
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